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[Nov. 21st, 2009|08:58 pm] |
Today is a hard day because I've come to the realization that I have to just be the drone my parents want me to be around them. Nod and agree. I can't express my feelings or ideas or perspective because they a) don't care and b) it starts a huge argument. I know saying your parents don't care about your view sounds like a teenage angst mall goth thing to say, but in my case it's actually true. They would rather avoid any sort of confrontation then disagree about something but entertain listening to the other side. It's heartbreaking and frustrating because I care about their opinions a lot and I care about them . I care about their perspective and Ic are about their thoughts on my perspective. I will never get to have that. I will never get to have their support or willingness to even glimpse at how I think. It kills me.
I just need to find a group of friends again like I've had in the past where multiple perspectives are constantly shared and respected so that I don't get so frustrated by my family life and lash out. |
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[Nov. 5th, 2009|10:12 am] |
For Halloween I wore this dress. My nana got it made for her in Japan a looong time ago and she got married in it. It fits me pretty well for being made for someone else.
I spent halloween weekend in SM, and will spend this weekend and most likely the following weekend there as well. Can't wait to eat at my fave mediterranean place again mmmm. I won't be selfish with this one www.yelp.com/biz/lahmacun-pizzeria-mediterranean-grill-san-mateo well maybe a little bit because I want them to get a ton of customers so they never close down.
for anyone who gives a shit, I'm doing greeeaaaaat in school. Have an A in all my 16 credits so far.
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