Our faces change so much from 17-22.
Sometimes I feel like I ruin everything i touch, every person I get to know well. I struggle to master, no to even begin the art of letting go. I hold on too tight, terrified that if i loosen my grasp momentarily they will make decisions that ruin them and me. This is not the way to be. This helps to make everything I'm so afraid of come true. It's so sticky and uncomfortable and just hard to tear yourself from that kind of mindset and take a few steps back. To breathe and say, this person is a person. Their life is not mine to control or steal away. They can and will make their own decisions, many of them I may not agree with. Many of them may hurt me. It's not up to me.

I want so desperately to be a good human being. It seems so hard sometimes. I also feel like so many people don't care very much at all if they're good people or not or about doing the right thing. It's frustrating and disheartening how selfish we can be. Are most humans this way globally? Why are people like this?  Why don't people want to be good, i mean really passionately want it, and live it.